Fallen

I've fallen today, after the past few days losing the battle to my mind
watched softcore and masturbated to it

what's the cause? i will simply put stress as the cause
i still read devotion this morning, but it seemed the mind has lost it for the day
i don't know what's going to happen tomorrow but i'll hope that i'll b able to go back to the right track, grow stronger than ever before!
i must get up!
yes, I've gone this far to realize that compared to past, I've done some marvelous improvement
i know He hasn't given up on me just yet
i will just keep fighting for it

I've decided that the person that I've been close to, to stay as a friend
i was so naive to have thought her to become my soul mate
i guess that's it, i think no more courting or going too deep with it
i probably had my fun already, and will move on to His will

I've liked someone for sometime, and even until now
every time i look at her, the only thing that pops in my mind is, "this is definitely the girl who i want to spend my life with"
but i just don't have the guts to tell her, but i know without solid preparation
clean from porn and masturbation, i won't be ready or i may say i can't allow myself to
well, tomorrow is just going to be another battle...
it's time to make a difference, breakthrough, revolution in my life!